I NEED to VENT about SLEEP issues!

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Ok. If you have been following my blog… It’s been about Kodiak my DeafBlind son and the issues he lives with and how it causes our life to suddenly turn on a dime! Well this post is all about ME! I hate to admit it because I usually put ME on a shelf! But this time? It is ME!

They say at times a child changes your life and life is never the same. I didn’t really feel our life changed much when Symone or Colten were born. They both slept 10 to 12 hours at night from 8:00 pm to 8:00 am beginning at about 2 weeks old. We took them everywhere and they loved life!

Then Kodiak came along and I have been seriously sleep deprived ever since. So I rarely have dreams. But when I do…I wake up either in a sweat and tears crying or panicked because something feels wrong or the dream is so real it freaks me out and as I wake up I realize it’s what we lived or what is happening. I would love a peaceful dream.

After our lovely Saturday and Sunday I was very relaxed. We went to bed early. Kodi was out!

It was snowing and I began dreaming about colors and floating things in the sky. Like the hot air balloons we blogged about 4 times on Saturday…

I then was dreaming about the sun, waves and surfing.

I was dreaming about a warm fire and watching out the window as huge soft snowflakes were falling and landing softly on the evergreen trees.

Then I was dreaming about a warm fire on the beach and suddenly I heard this very loud GRINDING sound and it felt like the ground was shaking.

All the surfers fell, the balloons crash landed, the trees fell from the weight of the snow and the warm fire on the beach blew up… These were fast flashes that’s why I remember it so clearly!!!

Then this very loud BEEP… BEEP… BEEP… BEEP… And then this even louder sound GRINDING and beeping.

It literally shook our town house and I sat straight up and grabbed the bed and yelled “WHAT WAS THAT!!!” I was throwing pillows and scrambling to free myself of bedding when I heard it again and again. I ran to Symone’s window… What? really?

I looked at my daughters iPhone and saw it was 2:30 am.

It was a skid-steer outside my daughters window plowing snow. And beeping in reverse!

Now as you already know I LOVE SNOW! But we had less than two inches.


And that obnoxious beeping!!! Can’t we shut that off in the middle of the night when NO ONE is even outside??? PLEASE!!!! HOW RUDE!!! My heart was racing!

Then if that was not bad enough! On the street outside my window… was the big snow plows going up and down the street and then sirens from either police or firetrucks!

Then just a few minutes after 5:00 am Kodi was giggling! I wanted to cry! I can’t wear ear plugs!!! Cloister phobic? Naw! Just can’t stand something in my ears and not being able to hear a kid if they needed me! Speaking of I thought Kodi would have it good in that instance… But NO it was the vibrating of our town home that woke him up!

Help! Just when I get some peaceful dreams I get very RUDLY awakened!

I’m ready to sleep now that I have vented about ME and the SLEEP issues around here!

No hard feelings to the men out there plowing away to make our streets and roads safe to drive on… Just can we keep it down a little!! πŸ™‚

Kodi at 5:00 am!



Thanks for the lovely photos of the snow and trees… Symone. Nice photo with and iPhone!!!

12 Responses

  1. I hope venting helped and I hope you get some peaceful, uninterupted dreams tonight. Sometimes the lack of common sense and decensy is extremely troubling. The fact they were out plowing the roads in the middle of the night is good – but, yes, they probably didn’t need to have their reverse warning sirens on. How very annoying.

  2. Oh I am SO sorry. I hate being sleep deprived. It is awful and makes coping so very difficult. One Saturday afternoon I was beyond exhausted and fell asleep. The dreams were starting and I know I was feeling good and that’s when my phone rang. It was the school system’s automated program calling to say that school was going to let out 2 hours early on February 15. This was the first weekend in OCTOBER! I was woken up on a Saturday afternoon to be told school was getting out 2 hours early in 4 months! Oh man was I pissed!!!

    Hang in there girl and may tonight bring you a lovely and refreshing night’s sleep! πŸ™‚

  3. Oh, I know what you mean about that beeping noise. Here’s to better days (and nights) ahead πŸ™‚

  4. Beep beep haha I hope to night the snowplows don’t come

  5. That’s kinda a strange dream… Balloons crash landing. It’s funny actually. And it all ended in a flash… πŸ˜‰ hey, Any dreams about frogs lately???? πŸ˜‰

  6. I’m not sure how I would handle lack of sleep for this long. I went a few years with each of my kids, but that passed. Feel free to vent as much as you want. I read a few of your postings you have written since this one, so I got a feel for how this is an ongoing issue for you.