Old Photos and Memories

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I will never forget how she came and sat almost a whole day with me. I know somewhere I have her holding Kodi but it would take awhile to find it.
I will never forget how she came and sat almost a whole day with me. I know somewhere I have her holding Kodi but it would take a while to find it.

Just have to get these photo‘s added into this blog. I know so many came to see me or brought me. Darrin my big little brother 🙂 younger but much taller :-). Then Alyssa and Kim. I know some others did as well. No one wanted me to be alone. It was very kind.

He was also getting a little jaundiced. So then he needed to be under lights... My sweet sweet little grizzly!
He was also getting a little jaundiced. So then he needed to be under lights… My sweet sweet little grizzly!

These photos bring back lots of memories… Let’s see I told you how Kodi ended up back in NICU… He was aspirating and how he had his Apnea monitor and Oxymeter that we had to drag around… Then again maybe I didn’t put all that down here… But it got crazy then next few months. With Simply Thick and everything. Then Kodi had to start the RSV injections every month where they would come to the house to give him his shot. He had this two fall and winters. It was a concern with his airway issues.

Oh so sweet... Poor little one!
Oh so sweet… Poor little one!

My little guy was so sweet. His best position we learned in the hospital looked like this… then they wanted him elevated… in a Danny sling…

Every day that I cam he was in a little different position and sleepy
Every day that I cam he was in a little different position and sleepy
Symone was so proud of him. She would say "He is so cute mommy!"
Symone was so proud of him. She would say “He is so cute mommy!”
He was so proud of "Kodiak WEEEVI"
He was so proud of “Kodiak WEEEVI”

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When Kodi finally did come home Symone was now a big 4-year-old. Colt was now 2 1/2. They were huge helpers for such little people. We also had melt downs and they needed me at many times… My idea to keep them involved with Kodiak’s care was the only think I could do to keep them attached to him and for us all to bond. There were a lot of questions and a ton of little comments along the way. The learned all the beeps and alarms that went off. They learned how Kodi had to be held. They learned how we had to have someone in the room with him at all times. And they were very good about making sure that he didn’t get into something. They also had to learn not to run around screaming and jumping and how this would make him startle with all the vibration They learned how to say so many words these little people should never have to learn how to say. Colt made sure everyone that came to visit would know Kodiak Levi’s full name and yet he did not know his own full name himself. He had a part in naming his little brother because he fell in love with the name Levi. Colt could not say Levi correctly until after he learned the letter “L” in Kindergarten. I remember the day because he would say “Mommy I wove you!” I dreaded the day when that would change because it was so cute. He got in the car and said “Mom today I learned “L” look at me.” I looked at him in the rear view mirror before backing up and he said perfectly “Mommy I LOVE you!” then he said “Kodiak Levi I LOVE you.” I got tears down my eyes. My Colt had grown up. I thought my little girl was always so cute how she talked as wall. At this age when Kodi was a baby she still called Colten “COKEN” One lady at Cub foods in line asked her what her name was and she said “Symme” Then she said what is your little brother’s name? Symme’s reply was “Coken” and the lady really gave her a look like what a weird name… 🙂

His favorite position just like his brother and sister as babies.
His favorite position just like his brother and sister as babies.

I will never forget the feeling of this day. It was a perfect summer day in every way. I loved this day!!!

We took him outside. Symone just wanted to hold him.
We took him outside. Symone just wanted to hold him.

 

It felt so grand being home with my family. To have Kodiak finally home. To be able to just put our feet up and enjoy our little guy! I can not tell you how good it was to be able to look outside or just walk out on the deck and sit with him and not have to have him hooked up all the time we were holding him. He was a little trooper and fighter. He did still sleep a lot. Since it was summer we did make sure to go outside and get sunlight as well. He loved to be warm but he did get overheated easily. Looking back I should have brought this up sooner. But we later learned he did have difficulty regulating his body temperature. The NICU nurses told me this but I didn’t really know what exactly that meant for him. I just thought all babies were like that.

My little girl became like Kodi’s second mom… As you can see she could not be prouder of her littlest brother. She really loved him and still does. She will make a good little mommy some day.

She is so proud. Look at that little face. Holding him just like Momma did.
She is so proud. Look at that little face. Holding him just like Momma did.

She still takes such wonderful care of him when I’m sick or away.

Colten has grown into a good care giver to his brother as he grew older. There have been many sacrifices along the way as well but we all have been blessed to have him in our life. He’s got a personality that is so amazing. We just wish we knew what he was thinking and how to curb the naughty behavior at times. The full moon sleepless nights are also difficult and any hospitalizations and illnesses as well. But we look back at these fond memories and it makes the bad times seem to just melt away. These sweet moments really are what make our life bearable and easier to get through because we have had precious times where he draws us in and it just compels us to love him with everything we have. The bad times we just end up feeling so sorry for him and try to endure to the next sweet moment. I hope you enjoy the photos… Right now it’s almost midnight. For some reason he is still awake. He is giggling and acting wild and crazy and giggling. Colt just came down to give him some milk and water to try to see what was up. I’m thinking he might not have gotten his Melatonin tonight…

I guess I’d better help Colt… we are all exhausted… but he did sleep in until 9:30 this am and let us all sleep… 🙂

 

 

 

5 Responses

  1. What precious pictures these are. Thank you for sharing them!

  2. Don’t you LOVE the baby pictures? I do. He was such a little cutie! And still is! I love this little guy so much!

  3. I remember our deck.