I had no idea my little man would be born with all the troubles he has. I get asked if I would have wanted to know. There actually is only one reason I would have wanted to know: I would have had him in a high risk hospital where he would have been in NICU sooner and we would have been a little less shocked. But as far as changing anything? I never regret having my precious little guy ever. He has taught me so much about what’s truly important, what I can and can not handle, and how to ask for help when I really do need it. I have also learned to accept help more graciously even though I don’t want help. When I ask for help I actually need the help and I know Kodiak benefits, my other two precious children and other family members also do, as well as those that get to help. Both of my other kids, Symone and Colten are real helpers. Symone was days shy of turning 4 when Kodi was born. Colt is 1 day shy of being 18 months younger than his sister so he was almost 2 1/2 when Kodi was born. I can not tell you how awful those first months really were but I will tell you some things that happened… His first year was a blur and began my journey of musical beds, no sleep, exhaustion and at times I would just sit down hold all 3 of my beautiful babies and cry and pray.
I will try to add from the past on here as well as keep up to date beginning with the past few months…
Chow for now